Friday, September 9, 2011

Considering Consequences

So I’m still trying to make some sort of sense of Michael’s recent abuse toward Tucker, if there is any sense to be made of it. I just want to be able to stop wracking my brain over the why of it all and possibly come to some level of understanding to try to help him through whatever is going on. There’s obviously some anger issues he’s trying to deal with that he’s venting in a very inappropriate way. So I asked him about school and he’s told me he only has one friend this year. The other kids laugh at him when he makes a mistake. Even Sebastian, who was his best friend last year, seems to be picking on him when he messes up.

Michael is extremely sensitive, which he gets from me. He also has a tendency to shut off his sense of responsibility when he’s done something wrong. He is just as quick to laugh at or tease someone else when they mess up, which he quickly dismisses as okay or justified because they laughed at him—even if he was the one who started it all. He never acknowledges his own responsibility when it comes to receiving consequences. Nothing is ever his fault. Someone or something else is always to blame. Always. I took away his birthday party this month because he kicked Tucker in the face. So, the other night when I caught him hurting Tucker again and asked him why, he said because Tucker made him lose his birthday party. He refuses to accept the thought that his action, his choice, to kick Tucker is the reason for the consequence. But Tucker pushed him down. That’s still no reason to kick a puppy in the face. I truly don’t know how to get through to him to make him see how he is the one who is wrong.

So why is he hurting the puppy? If he had a younger sibling, would he vent the abuse on the other child? Not that that would be okay, but I have to wonder if that would be the direction he would take. My older brother used to beat the crap out of me and my younger brother on an almost daily basis when we were growing up. I remember getting punched in the stomach by him for no reason. Would Michael do the same thing? Dale who is heading on fifty now, still refuses to see when he’s done something wrong. I worry that Michael will end up the same way!

How do I make him understand and accept his responsibility in his consequences? I can repeat the same things over and over to him and even make him repeat the reasoning back to me, or write it down twenty times, but he will still disassociate himself from the punishment. He still refuses to accept any blame for his actions. I’m so tired of beating my head against this brick wall! I know he can be good. I know he can be very loving, kind and considerate. He’s so brilliantly smart and always does great with his school work.

And I understand he’s hurting because he feels like he only has one friend—but I know that friend and he’s a good boy, so I’m happy that they’re friends this year. One good friend is all you need. He doesn’t need to be the most popular kid in class, especially considering the standards for which other kids judge you to  be the most popular. I don’t want him to be shallow, or materialistic, or to be cruel to other kids who don’t seem to ‘measure up’ to those standards. I want him to appreciate his own self-worth. One friend or fifty friends doesn’t mean a thing if you don’t appreciate who you are yourself.
Silly Ruby

Squigmond Freud


  1. My oldest boy is in 8th grade and he is the same way. Nothing is ever his fault. Michael will learn eventually when he grows up. Just not as quickly as girls mature. Boys have a lot of pent up anger. And yes they sometimes release it in bad ways. Our job is to show them how to release that tension without hurting others. About the friends though, maybe it's time to join some groups. Church or sports. That is very good bonding for boys especially since he is an only child.

  2. Hi Dawn its Rachelle. I think maybe there is more going on at school and Michael is not telling you. He is taking out his anger on the puppy because he is to afraid to stick up for himself. You have to tell him to try and say something back to the kids who are being mean. They will get sick of picking on him if he sticks up for himself. Ask Micheal if someone came to his house and hit his dog would he think that was right? Oh Lord have mercy boys are tough! Maybe we can get some people from the hill to go to school with him and take care of business!!


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