Out of Control

I feel like everything is swirling out of control lately. I haven’t slept a whole night through in weeks with Tucker being sick. He either wakes me up to let him out or I wake up to the smell that he’s had an accident in the house. I’ve tried everything I know of to help him get  better, hoping to not have to go to the vet since I still have Ruby I’m dealing with, with whatever is going on with her ear. Her redness and oozing seem to have gone away, but there’s still swelling at the base of her ear that isn’t normal. I have to take her back for a follow up yet and apparently I’ll have to take Tucker in for some tests to hopefully find out what’s causing his diahrrea and clear it up so maybe we can sleep through the night again soon. I’m exhausted.

The money just seems to be dwindling away. Vet bills. Computers crashed from viruses. New mufflers and car inspections. Motorcycle registrations. Dryer deaths. Every week seems to bring some new crisis and we’re struggling to keep up.

Then I have Michael misbehaving on some astronomical level of cruelty so that I can’t even begin to put that together with the child that I raised. My head is still reeling, trying to make sense of what he’s done. My mom’s cousin passed away yesterday morning after battling lung cancer for the past several months. Now my brother is in the hospital fighting an infection from a burst appendix. When it rains, it pours, doesn’t it?

I am thankful that God carries us through times like these, where nothing seems to make sense and I feel like I’m drowning. I know He’s there, keeping my head above water and He will never let me go. He always provides everything we need, exactly when we need it-my Jehovah Jireh, and I find rest in His peace, my Jehovah Shalom. I know He’ll see us through this storm. He never fails. Praise the LORD.

I asked Michael to pull the sheets from the couch and loveseat for me and he made himself a little lounge area for watching cartoons...